Treatment Isn’t an Exact Science

 

Not to be pessimistic or sound discouraged, but it can be discouraging!  I’ve been on thyroid medication for over a year now and I’m still not “right”.  Since beginning treatment I have switched my medication from synthetic thyroid replacement to natural desiccated thyroid, and have my levels increased 9 times to date (if you’re curious as to why).  I am currently awaiting results from my most recent blood test, which I know without a doubt will lead to a higher dosage and possibly other medications for a few new symptoms.

Most recently I’ve been experiencing terrifying levels of brain fog.  I have an extremely hard time concentrating, or multitasking.  Most embarrassing is being able to hold a conversation.  I’m a socially anxious person as is, so not being able to retrieve the word that you know comes next has only intensified my anxieties.  There are many times where I know what I want to say and I can’t.  Or I do and the timing is off.  Smiling is my favorite for more than one reason.  I also lose things constantly, or can’t remember what I’m looking for or sometimes even what I’m doing.

On Monday, eight, EIGHT of my fingernails peeled.  Out of nowhere.  Of course I couldn’t resist helping them along.  But eight nails had that tell tale whitish bubble starting at the end of my fingernail.  A little pick and a third of the top layer of my nail was gone.  That hasn’t happened in a while, so I figured a retest was for sure due.

Arthritis?  I’m 29 and I’m pretty sure I have arthritis in my hands and wrists.  My joints and knuckles hurt.  They ache to do something as menial as type, or hold my phone, or the steering wheel.  I’m positive the knuckles on my right hand are swollen.  I was worried about having to take notes last night in class.  Luckily, it was my first class and there was no note taking.

Poor circulation.  This is something that I’ve always had an issue with, but when it’s 45 degrees in January (I just typed and erased December-thank you brain fog) and I have to wear my winter jacket inside and my hands are turning blue and freezing there’s an issue.

I’m tired.  Not normal I didn’t get a good nights sleep tired. Like painfully I can’t wait to go back to bed when I wake up tired.  I wake up and calculate the hours until I can go back to sleep.

So what do I do to combat any of this? I read.  A lot. I experiment.  I’m my own human guinea pig.  I take a handful of pills each day (when I remember).  I stopped eating wheat.  I just, as in today, began drinking kefir and taking a multi strain probiotic.  I take naps when I can get them and I exercise when I can. I do what I can and accept that this is a process.